"A raw and empowering depiction of vulnerability, self-analysis and growth."
What at first seemed to be seasonal depression quickly spiraled into a traumatic and crippling case of anxiety, that nearly ended in suicide. Utilizing vivid imagery, this poetic memoir captures the honest story of a young woman’s struggle to conquer the darkness of depression.
The debut poetry book, My Favorite Color is Yellow, written by Kayla Eloise, recounts the emotional turmoil of being confronted with such “unexpected irrationalities” in her early twenties. Each poem portrays a different emotion or realization within her experience and does so in order of occurrence. Journey through her mind as she embarks on an adventure of bewilderment, awareness, effort and healing, while the world around her remains oblivious.
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Excerpts
"every mourning"
Every morning,
I resurrect
and wash the blood off my bones.
I clothe myself in happy skin,
and then, away I go.
I have to smile and I have to wave,
I might throw in a nod.
I’ve got this “super-glued composure,”
so that I don’t break this facade.
Then at the end of the day
I return to my grave.
Only to find
a desperate glimpse of hope
trying to brighten my cave.
Okay, wait.
The hope starts to shimmer...
My bones start to glimmer...
The grief starts to ease,
and my troubled heart seems so pleased.
But eventually, the hope has to leave...
and my heart has to bleed.
Until I die again,
and the cycle repeats.
Every morning,
"commonality"
Talk to me and you will see
that I am not all that different.
When given an opportunity
I've been taking out the time to listen,
to be attentive.
Wiping the tears from my glasses, I see
that I am surrounded by weary souls,
struggling just like me.
Struggling just to be,
struggling to resist and exist,
to be set free.
But we
will emerge victorious.
Though our journeys may not be so glorious,
I am urging you to be courageous.
Cheering you on, as we support each other in these emotional marathons.
Because that's what true friends are for.
And the more I ponder and pay attention,
I find that I've always had many more.
(Proverbs 17:17)
AUTHOR BIO
Born and raised on the Northside of Pittsburgh, PA, the young Kayla Eloise discovered her love for writing poetry in her 5th grade English class. She began writing privately as a coping mechanism to express what she found difficult to articulate in conversation. Often writing poems that would never be shared with anyone but her mother.
She didn't consider herself to be a poet. It wasn’t until her now husband, Quentin Milliones, encouraged her to perform at a talent showcase that her passion for poetry was reignited. Her work touches on life, trauma, healing, and growth. Kayla is now a self-published poet, an artist and the owner of the small business known as, Kayla Kreates. When she's not "kreating," Kayla volunteers in a ministry dedicated to helping others benefit from the Bible's message and draw closer to God.
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